I really need to start working and getting my life planned out and aim for my goals. Whats really sparking my interest is video and photography. I just like the art on how you can take so many pictures that have so many great memory’s from a photo or a video. And as for my rc drifting I want to turn pro and pursue that and get my team name big and got national and shit (excuse my language) My dream is to incorporate all my hobbies and make a movie of my life so basically vloging. But I want to get better in my photography so I can start selling them and make some money or start like a small business for like underground clothing brands, underground artists, graffiti all the street shit I want to take photos and make them unique to my like and sell them in frames. Ive also been stressing about shit.. I wish I had money so i could move out and just give my family space cause it feels like when im around it just seems akward and my brothers not even talking to me so its like fuck it.. I know we got in a fight and shit but dude your gonna ignore me for old shit.. I guess man just move the fuck on.. and I hate how people always think my younger brother is older than me its like fuck man and people clown on me cause of that shit and it irritates me… I lately been on a idgaf spreee and I dont like it seem like im always unhappy which I am but aye i try to stay happy, but deep down inside im not so dont judge me. I always get this thought “I wonder if I would be happier if I had a girl best friend or a girlfriend, I say I would be happier becasue out of my 19 years I havnt had a serious relationship my longest relationship was 1 or 2 weeks.. I know sad but at least I tried. then after that I talked to girls then I ended up getting fucked over again and again so I was like fuck it.. Thats why I have trust issues…